Friday, August 30, 2013

Closing a chapter...

It's always a little bitter sweet to close a chapter of life, and enter a new one. Today we will forever solidify our family of 5 status. I'm excited to write new chapters in my book of life, one that doesn't contain pregnancy tests, and announcements of yet another baby on the way. The new chapter won't contain sleepless nights (at least not because of a new born) or itty bitty little diapers. It won't consist of that new baby smell, or the little body bundled up on my chest. There is excitement in those things, yet also sadness. With my other 2 children when I packed up the clothes they grew out of, I knew they would come back out again. This time the clothes won't come back out. 

While a little sadness lingers today, I'm also overcome with a feeling of thankfulness. Thankful that I have 3 beautiful children that are happy and healthy. Thankful that I got to bear 3 children within  my body, and last but not least, I'm thankful for insurance that is covering this procedure today! :)

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

I will never sleep again...Will I?

The baby started sleeping through the night a few weeks ago. I was sooo excited because this meant that I would start getting some sleep again, right? Wrong. Just when I thought things were returning to  "normal again" ie; me not walking around like a zombie with bags under my eyes, my soon to be 2 year old has decided that he is going to throw a wrench in things.

Carter has never been a real solid sleeper. Things in the house have to be pretty quiet , and even then naps are super inconsistent as far as length of time goes. On occasion he wakes up in the middle of the night for no reason.  The thing about him is that he does not self soothe. He can cry for hours on end, and when I say cry I really mean scream bloody murder.  When this happens either me or hubby get up with him which means one of us will be up the rest of the night because the kid will not go back to sleep. 

Last week we had a middle of the night episode. Ok, no big deal right? We have been through this plenty of times. Well, unfortunately the middle of the night episode has turned into an every night for over a week episode. Suddenly, he wants nothing to do with his crib. The child that never fell asleep on me wants only wants to be held while he sleeps. When I attempt to put him down for bed, he holds on to me for dear life. The other night I literally climbed in his crib with him until he fell asleep. At that point I was desperate for a full nights sleep, and I still am! Last night at 3 am he woke up again. Luckily, my husband got up with him, but once I'm awake it's very hard for me to fall back to sleep, and right as I did the baby was up and ready to be fed.

Has anyone dealt with 2 year old sleep regression? If so, what did you do about it? At this point I'm convinced I'll never sleep again!

Monday, April 15, 2013

It's been a while...

Life has been crazy hectic the last few months. I've been MIA for a few reasons. I just had a baby and my husband recently spent 9 days in the hospital, 5 of which were in the ICU recently due to a staph infection that turned into toxic shock syndrome where he almost died.

Due to these recent events I have had to take a step back from a lot of things. I closed my Etsy Shop, and stopped doing anything related to crafting and making things. Right now my 3 babies and my husband are top priority. There is a season for everything. and right now Etsy Shops, and blogs have to be put on the back burner.  I have to be honest, I do not miss my etsy shop one bit. It was fun while it lasted. I had marginal success, and just realized that at the end of the day, I just wasn't having fun anymore. Now that I'm not doing my shop anymore, I have time for so many other things, and it's great! 

I hope to start blogging more again soon, but I make no promises! I just have to take it one day at a time:)

Thursday, February 7, 2013

6 weeks later...well 5.5, but who's counting??

And this is where the real work begins. I have lost 25lbs without really doing anything about it. I have been walking here and there, but I really haven't tried to lose weight...yet. Yesterday I felt like a fat cow. I know I should give myself some grace. For goodness sakes I just had a baby 5.5 weeks ago, but then the critical side of me thinks it's been 5.5 weeks and you look like this! It doesn't help that I can't fit into any of my regular clothes. I can pull them up over my legs for the most part, but do you see that belly? Yeah, I'm not getting anything to button around that waist any time real soon.  

So here I am in all my glory. Yes, I literally just took this picture which tells you that I'm still in pj's and my hair is up, and I have no idea when I will get my next shower or fit in any type of exercise that will actually make me sweat. I can tell you that it is my goal to get into thee best shape of my life this year. I'm not looking for a quick fix, but I do have goals. Since I'm breastfeeding I can't be on a diet per se, but I can make better food choices, and I'm trying...sometimes. I have a sweet tooth like no other! Why can't I not like chocolate, or french fries, or lots of sugar in my coffee??  I pretty much have ZERO self control when it comes to these things, but I better get some. I want to be fit more than I want those french fries...most days;)