Monday, April 15, 2013
Thursday, February 7, 2013
And this is where the real work begins. I have lost 25lbs without really doing anything about it. I have been walking here and there, but I really haven't tried to lose weight...yet. Yesterday I felt like a fat cow. I know I should give myself some grace. For goodness sakes I just had a baby 5.5 weeks ago, but then the critical side of me thinks it's been 5.5 weeks and you look like this! It doesn't help that I can't fit into any of my regular clothes. I can pull them up over my legs for the most part, but do you see that belly? Yeah, I'm not getting anything to button around that waist any time real soon.
So here I am in all my glory. Yes, I literally just took this picture which tells you that I'm still in pj's and my hair is up, and I have no idea when I will get my next shower or fit in any type of exercise that will actually make me sweat. I can tell you that it is my goal to get into thee best shape of my life this year. I'm not looking for a quick fix, but I do have goals. Since I'm breastfeeding I can't be on a diet per se, but I can make better food choices, and I'm trying...sometimes. I have a sweet tooth like no other! Why can't I not like chocolate, or french fries, or lots of sugar in my coffee?? I pretty much have ZERO self control when it comes to these things, but I better get some. I want to be fit more than I want those french fries...most days;)
Friday, January 11, 2013
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Tomorrow, I will become a mother of 3. Tomorrow is the day that I will meet my daughter. Tomorrow we will become a family of 5!
Today, I want to soak up all the time with my boys that I can. I want to take lots of pictures of us as a family of 4, when I'm still the only girl in the family. It's a bittersweet feeling. My little boy will now be a big brother of 2 siblings. I see the way he tries to take care of his little brother and its so sweet. I can't wait to see how he is with his sister. Today is also the last day that Carter will be the baby of the family. Of course he will still be my baby, but his role in the family is changing too.
Tonight, will be my last full nights sleep for a while. Well come to think of it, it's been a while since I've had a full nights sleep, but instead of waking up to achy hips, and a throbbing back I'll be waking up to the cries of my hungry baby.
Tonight, I will probably get anxious. I'll be nervous about her delivery. I'll be nervous if my gestational diabetes will cause any blood sugar problems. I'll wonder if she really weighs over 8lbs. I'll be excited to close my eyes and picture what she looks like.
Tonight, I will take one last look at this belly. I'll soak it all in. The body I try to avoid looking at in the mirror I'll stare at long and hard. I'll make a mental note about how I look so tired, so strong, stretched to capacity. I'll put my hands on my large belly, and rub it for a while remembering how it feels to hold a baby that's living inside of me. I'll close my eyes and thank God for my blessings. I might even cry a little bit.
Tonight, I will make sure to lay next to my husband. I'll reminisce with him about what it was like when it was just him and I. I'll talk to him about how much has changed in the last 5 years together. I'll make sure he rubs my belly too. I'll probably cry a little more.
This morning I will go to church and worship the one that has made this all possible. I'll lift my hands in praise because I don't deserve any of this, yet he has given it to me so freely. I'll pray for peace and grace as we make this transition, because I know it won't be easy!
If you think about us, pray for a smooth and easy c-section. Pray or the health of our daughter, and pray for our boys as they will be staying with family for the 3 days I'm in the hospital. I'll be posting a lot of pictures tomorrow to my IG account so be on the look out!